I hate sonnets

 I hate sonnets. I also hate the AP Lit Exam. I hate them both equally because there is a high chance that a sonnet will end up on the AP Lit Exam. I hate sonnets because I can never understand them, they are my kryptonite because I get under the impression that the sonnet is about some declaration or revelation about love, which most of them are, and all I really have to do is find out what it is about love that the speaker is trying to say, whether it is how the desire will grasp you and keep hold of you, or that the speaker's lover won't ever really dedicate herself to him. They also seem to be the same, or the ones we have read so far, that there is something that blocks the speaker from love. But all that is just the basic, very superficial understanding; It's how the structure and diction and imagery that describes why they speaker can't have what it is that he craves so desperately that doesn't make sense and frustrates me. It always takes me a minute to realize that a poem is actually a sonnet because I am so busy trying to make sure that I have enough time to really understand what it is that the author is trying to say about the speaker that I never actually realize that it is a sonnet. On top of all that I feel like I always misread the sonnet, like if you were to read it just line by line then you get one meaning, or if you read the whole thing it seems different, or if you divide it up by the octave and the sestet you feel like you are reading two different poems. They seem so hard to understand because those fourteen lines are jam packed with so much imagery and there are so many scenes that it seems so hard to understand what the speaker is trying to say. When we did our timed writing on the desire sonnet by Sir Philip, I remember looking at and establishing 2 things; one that the speaker was going through a rapid change of emotions in how desire had came to him, swept over him, and then eventually consumed him and secondly that the desire itself and what it felt like to have such a feeling. I could understand that but still I felt like something was off like there was more to the sonnet then I was actually understanding. With my thesis statement off, as always, I had a hard time setting up my paper the way that I wanted to, to accurately construct a well written essay even if was kind of off. I hate sonnets. So very much.